I’ve lived in the same place all my life now, and I guess that does say a lot about me and the type of person I am. Change is something that has been difficult. Maybe it has to do with just me being stubborn or maybe the environment and upbringing I’ve had. Especially growing up as an only child in a Filipino family, there was a healthy amount of ass whooping and plenty of rules to follow. All of that contributed to my creation?
During my primary school years, I had friends but I was never the most outspoken or outstanding one. Everyone around me had something to say or show, I on the other hand was a wallflower who kept my stuff to myself. I went to school, did my work, attended church and spent most of my time in the company of silence and video games. I don’t have any complaints for the way I lived my primary school years, but I am happy for the change I have gradually gone through during my highschool years.
One fellow who really made an impact in my life is my bud Owen. I met him during a summer orientation camp for my new high school. Funny thing is, it wasn't even me who approached him, but my mother who introduced him to me. He was her friend’s son and before I knew it he was my best friend. We got along well, he was the complete opposite of me. He was well spoken, could socialise and had loads of friends. I learnt a great deal from him, how to talk, start conversations and even build new friendships. Without him, I would still be very introverted. However, at highschool, despite Owen’s influence and company, the change within me was still very small. I still preferred to have lunch on my own, and spend my free time in the library with the comfort of some good books and the hum of air conditioners.
I genuinely believe I have come a long way from the introverted hermit I once was. However, I think my desire to spend my time with myself doesn’t need to be something that’s bad. I do have friends and people to talk to and I do go out with people. I just value staying at home in my room, looking and memes, playing video games and simply being in the bliss of my bed.
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